Lifeless

I felt some undesirable feelings in my chest..
And my heart beats so painfully..
The harsh and loud thumps trying to makesure that i am still alive eventho it hurts everytime my heart beats...

The worse part is i have to just consume everything and not making any complains..

And blame myself cause everything happens badly are the consequences of my actions and my words..
I always fucked things up..

Atleast i'm still healthy and alive right..?

God, i'm dying inside...